Most weeks here in Sandwich Town are busy and full of balance. This week seems to be extra busy.
This week is like a panini maker, add all ingredients press and add heat. Let me start by saying PMS is a force to be reckoned with on its own. Then add, Sam's school book fair all week, I am only working 2 days. I am feeling guilty even if I have a volunteer who is doing an excellent job.
Liz starts working this week and we had to get all the uniform stuff. Who would have guessed that black dress pants with no pockets in a size 0-1 would be so hard to find.
MIL is having a rough week, she had an appointment with the neurologist. She and my hubby and his sister have court on Friday to probate his dad's estate. Kevin's sister has her work Christmas party on Friday night (I guess MIL is coming back here after court).
My mom has surgery on Thursday.
I have a meeting at Liz's school for her IEP. I need to reschedule my first mammogram.
I want to get a Christmas tree and get the decorations done on Saturday.
So I am feeling a bit under pressure and heat! I have not been sleeping well the last couple days so that does not help.
WHINE WHINE WHINE... I wish WINE WINE WINE!!!
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Thanksgiving!
Well Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday. It is not like I decorate everything in turkeys and Pilgrims. I love the feeling of thankfulness to God for all the blessings we have.
I have so many blessings I can not count them. Some days I feel overwhelmed with the "blessings". When the Thanks Giving season is upon us it is somehow easier to to see how in the midst of trials there are also many blessings. Blessings fill every part of my life. If you are reading this you are a blessing to me.
This LONG weekend has been so filled with fun and joy. There are times when I was stressed and set my expectations too high...not Martha Stewart high, but, too high. When I relax and enjoy then the gifts flow they are poured out on me.
So I will relax and enjoy the days that lead up to Christmas... God's greatest gift is given to the world. Jesus Christ is born to be the Savior of the world!
I have so many blessings I can not count them. Some days I feel overwhelmed with the "blessings". When the Thanks Giving season is upon us it is somehow easier to to see how in the midst of trials there are also many blessings. Blessings fill every part of my life. If you are reading this you are a blessing to me.
This LONG weekend has been so filled with fun and joy. There are times when I was stressed and set my expectations too high...not Martha Stewart high, but, too high. When I relax and enjoy then the gifts flow they are poured out on me.
So I will relax and enjoy the days that lead up to Christmas... God's greatest gift is given to the world. Jesus Christ is born to be the Savior of the world!
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Dragon Slayer
Well today (I hope) after months of discussion I hope to slay one of the dragons in my life. I am having a meeting this morning to discuss an issue at school. It is not the person who is the dragon it is the issue itself.
The parent group wants to give money to a program to offset the out of pocket cost to the parents. The administration does not want it for various reasons. So this morning for the good of the school, we will sit down and get to the bottom of this.
I am so glad that a couple of days have pasted and I am over the "Chestnuts Roasting On An Open Fire" phase. I think there are a couple that are still in that phase. However faint the voice of reason will prevail. I must fight the erg to say "if you don't take the money, we can have a whole school meeting and you can explain your reasons to the Parents!" Must fight that off.LOL
I am not sure how I get myself into these situations, maybe it is because I have a big mouth and am not scared to use it. I must admit, I will back down if I am wrong, but, if I am not I will fight till I am charcoal!
Then it is off to the next battle! Be careful you lurking dragons be very careful!
The parent group wants to give money to a program to offset the out of pocket cost to the parents. The administration does not want it for various reasons. So this morning for the good of the school, we will sit down and get to the bottom of this.
I am so glad that a couple of days have pasted and I am over the "Chestnuts Roasting On An Open Fire" phase. I think there are a couple that are still in that phase. However faint the voice of reason will prevail. I must fight the erg to say "if you don't take the money, we can have a whole school meeting and you can explain your reasons to the Parents!" Must fight that off.LOL
I am not sure how I get myself into these situations, maybe it is because I have a big mouth and am not scared to use it. I must admit, I will back down if I am wrong, but, if I am not I will fight till I am charcoal!
Then it is off to the next battle! Be careful you lurking dragons be very careful!
Thursday, November 11, 2010
In Your Face
Well this morning I started my blog with the same title and had a couple of paragraphs done. I deleted it, it just did not feel right. It was a bit self centered and grumpy.
This day has unfolded like a linen table cloth after being tied in a knot. The wrinkles are here to stay. No matter how hot the iron or how hard I press they will still be here.
In your face is what dementia is today. There is no sugar coating, no ignoring it. First I want to say that my BELOVED Grandmother Elizabeth died from Alzheimer Disease. Everyday she was on my heart, mind and in my prayers. I loved this woman MORE than anyone else (well hubby and kids excluded). She was a wonderful role model whom I try to model my life after! She was truly a GIFT.
That said, having a person with dementia in my home is the HARDEST thing. The endless questions that run through my mind...the simple like what is she doing in the bathroom, what is out that she might get into with out knowing what it is. To the complex like what is setting her off, why is she upset and how can I help her. This mornings big question (self centered as it was) Why is she up at 6:45 and In MY FACE.
I do thank God that in the course of this day I have become less self centered. from her being hysterical that her sister in Arizona would be at Vicki's, and that is not the "real" Vicki. Her packing everything here to take for the weekend, to crying and hugging me asking "just call them and tell them not to come for me." Then I lost her in a store, the panic on her face and when she saw me hugging me!
We did go for lunch at a restaurant that we eat at A LOT. She went to the bathroom. The manager asked how my day was, I said it will get better. I told her that MIL did not know who I was (she called me Friend during lunch) and that it was a bad day for her. A customer was standing there and said her Grandma had the same thing and they were keeping her at home too. Then she said something that made me want to choke her... "Some of the family say they can not keep her, they need to just suck it up." There it is IN YOUR FACE! That woman has no idea what goes into caring for her Grandma.
Then as we pull up to our home. She says to me this is Kevin's house with a puzzled look. I say yes we all live here. Kevin your son, me Tonya, you, Liz and Sam. The look on her face when she realized she did not know who I was, just makes you hurt for her. IN YOUR FACE...SAD.
The facts are in our faces all the time, yet can be avoided for some brief times of happiness, but, it is and as long as she is here will be ALWAYS IN OUR FACE.
This day has unfolded like a linen table cloth after being tied in a knot. The wrinkles are here to stay. No matter how hot the iron or how hard I press they will still be here.
In your face is what dementia is today. There is no sugar coating, no ignoring it. First I want to say that my BELOVED Grandmother Elizabeth died from Alzheimer Disease. Everyday she was on my heart, mind and in my prayers. I loved this woman MORE than anyone else (well hubby and kids excluded). She was a wonderful role model whom I try to model my life after! She was truly a GIFT.
That said, having a person with dementia in my home is the HARDEST thing. The endless questions that run through my mind...the simple like what is she doing in the bathroom, what is out that she might get into with out knowing what it is. To the complex like what is setting her off, why is she upset and how can I help her. This mornings big question (self centered as it was) Why is she up at 6:45 and In MY FACE.
I do thank God that in the course of this day I have become less self centered. from her being hysterical that her sister in Arizona would be at Vicki's, and that is not the "real" Vicki. Her packing everything here to take for the weekend, to crying and hugging me asking "just call them and tell them not to come for me." Then I lost her in a store, the panic on her face and when she saw me hugging me!
We did go for lunch at a restaurant that we eat at A LOT. She went to the bathroom. The manager asked how my day was, I said it will get better. I told her that MIL did not know who I was (she called me Friend during lunch) and that it was a bad day for her. A customer was standing there and said her Grandma had the same thing and they were keeping her at home too. Then she said something that made me want to choke her... "Some of the family say they can not keep her, they need to just suck it up." There it is IN YOUR FACE! That woman has no idea what goes into caring for her Grandma.
Then as we pull up to our home. She says to me this is Kevin's house with a puzzled look. I say yes we all live here. Kevin your son, me Tonya, you, Liz and Sam. The look on her face when she realized she did not know who I was, just makes you hurt for her. IN YOUR FACE...SAD.
The facts are in our faces all the time, yet can be avoided for some brief times of happiness, but, it is and as long as she is here will be ALWAYS IN OUR FACE.
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Fight or Flight
I do not think for the most part I would be considered a fighter, flighty YES. As I was watching a TV show with the kids the other day there was a scene that struck me!
This girl was training for a marathon, funny part was she had a tape of dogs barking to make her run faster. The girl tells other girl "I run faster if I think that the dogs are going to eat my face off!" Well there it is. The nugget of truth of how I live my life.
I am a planner, however, sometimes to get things moving "the dogs" must be nipping at my heals. Is it that I am waiting to see that the plan is in line with God's plan? Is it that I am waiting for the easier plan to come along? Is it that I do not think I can accomplish what I set out to do, so I wait for the "dogs"? So I have lived this flight (movement) way so long.
Maybe fight is the mode of planning that I need to move to? I think I have proved to myself that I am able to handle the hard things, the important things, the big things. So what is the plan to be? I am thinking life is a Marathon set up in sets of a lot of sprints.
I shall "sprint" today to the the next place to rest. I hope the "dogs" are resting, cause I know to let "sleeping dogs" lay.
This girl was training for a marathon, funny part was she had a tape of dogs barking to make her run faster. The girl tells other girl "I run faster if I think that the dogs are going to eat my face off!" Well there it is. The nugget of truth of how I live my life.
I am a planner, however, sometimes to get things moving "the dogs" must be nipping at my heals. Is it that I am waiting to see that the plan is in line with God's plan? Is it that I am waiting for the easier plan to come along? Is it that I do not think I can accomplish what I set out to do, so I wait for the "dogs"? So I have lived this flight (movement) way so long.
Maybe fight is the mode of planning that I need to move to? I think I have proved to myself that I am able to handle the hard things, the important things, the big things. So what is the plan to be? I am thinking life is a Marathon set up in sets of a lot of sprints.
I shall "sprint" today to the the next place to rest. I hope the "dogs" are resting, cause I know to let "sleeping dogs" lay.
Friday, November 5, 2010
A Bitter Pill
Well, as I watch my MIL struggle to get this one pill down every morning and every evening I see the dread in her eyes. She always puts it off to the last. I think she is hoping that we will forget she needs to take it. Or, maybe she believes like her dirty laundry it will just disappear.
I can't help but think this pill is how she has dealt with her memory issues. Putting them off and fighting what is meant to help her.
So watching her deal with this dementia and watching my Grandmother deal with her Alzheimer's, I see a vast difference. My Grandmother went willingly with love and kindness. I hope if the tables were turned, I would go willingly!
So I told Liz the other night on the way to her awards thing "If you kids think I need to go to the Dr, I will go"...
She glances at me while driving and says, "Make a mamogram appointment." Gulp, there it is the bitter little pill! Time to put my money where my mouth is, or the squish where my boobs are!LOL
So I will have a cookie on the way to my appointment..."cause a spoonful of sugar helps the medicine go down!"
I can't help but think this pill is how she has dealt with her memory issues. Putting them off and fighting what is meant to help her.
So watching her deal with this dementia and watching my Grandmother deal with her Alzheimer's, I see a vast difference. My Grandmother went willingly with love and kindness. I hope if the tables were turned, I would go willingly!
So I told Liz the other night on the way to her awards thing "If you kids think I need to go to the Dr, I will go"...
She glances at me while driving and says, "Make a mamogram appointment." Gulp, there it is the bitter little pill! Time to put my money where my mouth is, or the squish where my boobs are!LOL
So I will have a cookie on the way to my appointment..."cause a spoonful of sugar helps the medicine go down!"
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Pity Party!
Well usually I have a PollyAnna view on life, it serves me well to see the happy, funny and positive side of life.
However, there are times (usually hormones are involved) that I just throw a pity party. Today was the surprise day! Ok so I have been "buying decorations" for the party for about a week. They just all came together with just one guest!
First decoration was that my SIL scheduled her hubby a minor surgery for this afternoon...really??? Today is Thursday and you take MIL for the weekend! Really??? Then surgery got switched to 5:00PM tonight, it is a 3-4 hour procedure. So MIL will stay the night with us! Don't the crape paper streamers look nice.
Second decoration was last Saturday evening, my hubby casually says "I am buying Thomas' pickup back" YOU are buying...Not WE, Not What do you think, NOT A WORD to me!!!! I was so ticked... The balloons look nice too!
Then the cake with the beautiful frosting was I was in the shower...Kevin is turning the water on and off...So it gets HOT and COLD....REALLY I get so little time to relax and you Mess up my 5 minute shower????
The party was kinda short and to the point! There was a party crasher, A STREEKER!!!
So MIL needed a shower, I help her. So she takes all her clothes off in her room and asks "it is just us here?" I tell her "well Sam is home." "Oh, that is OK..." and she walks down the hall bare ass naked! LOL
I guess seeing his 78 year old naked Grandma is ok in her mind!!!!
Thanks GOD for breaking up the party early!!!!
However, there are times (usually hormones are involved) that I just throw a pity party. Today was the surprise day! Ok so I have been "buying decorations" for the party for about a week. They just all came together with just one guest!
First decoration was that my SIL scheduled her hubby a minor surgery for this afternoon...really??? Today is Thursday and you take MIL for the weekend! Really??? Then surgery got switched to 5:00PM tonight, it is a 3-4 hour procedure. So MIL will stay the night with us! Don't the crape paper streamers look nice.
Second decoration was last Saturday evening, my hubby casually says "I am buying Thomas' pickup back" YOU are buying...Not WE, Not What do you think, NOT A WORD to me!!!! I was so ticked... The balloons look nice too!
Then the cake with the beautiful frosting was I was in the shower...Kevin is turning the water on and off...So it gets HOT and COLD....REALLY I get so little time to relax and you Mess up my 5 minute shower????
The party was kinda short and to the point! There was a party crasher, A STREEKER!!!
So MIL needed a shower, I help her. So she takes all her clothes off in her room and asks "it is just us here?" I tell her "well Sam is home." "Oh, that is OK..." and she walks down the hall bare ass naked! LOL
I guess seeing his 78 year old naked Grandma is ok in her mind!!!!
Thanks GOD for breaking up the party early!!!!
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Underwear!
The title may seem a bit random. Unfortunately underwear is a big concern in our home. We have several fronts where underwear comes into play.
Well there is Sam, his underwear are worn pulled up as far as humanly possible. I hope it does not interfere in "development" if you know what I mean.LOL
Liz now that she is 18 she wants to wear thong undies... I have know idea how that can be considered comfortable. Oh to be young and choose fashion over function.LOL
Kevin "do I have any clean underwear?" LOOK in the Drawer!!!LOL
MIL her undies are like an Easter egg hunt to try to see where she hid the dirty ones... where oh where would I be if I were old lady panties.LOL
My undies were the least talked about and of little concern to the family and frankly to myself. UNTIL, the other day while sitting on the "throne of solitude" pondering the universe. (OK hiding for a minute) I glance down at my undies. The elastic is worn through all around the legs. Note to self toss these puppies in the trash. Well again the next day (a different pair) I notice that the elastic is showing through also a hole in the seam in the back...Great I have a whole in my butt! And today same deal elastic and 3 holes. I am thinking that I need to make trip to the Wally world!
I am thinking that the state of my undies could be a sign of the priority list I have set up. I did not want to buy new undies in this size. However I am deserving to serve my God and my family in NEW undies no matter the size. And when they are too Small I WILL go get new smaller ones... I deserve them also!!!!
Here is to new undies and new priorities!!!!
Well there is Sam, his underwear are worn pulled up as far as humanly possible. I hope it does not interfere in "development" if you know what I mean.LOL
Liz now that she is 18 she wants to wear thong undies... I have know idea how that can be considered comfortable. Oh to be young and choose fashion over function.LOL
Kevin "do I have any clean underwear?" LOOK in the Drawer!!!LOL
MIL her undies are like an Easter egg hunt to try to see where she hid the dirty ones... where oh where would I be if I were old lady panties.LOL
My undies were the least talked about and of little concern to the family and frankly to myself. UNTIL, the other day while sitting on the "throne of solitude" pondering the universe. (OK hiding for a minute) I glance down at my undies. The elastic is worn through all around the legs. Note to self toss these puppies in the trash. Well again the next day (a different pair) I notice that the elastic is showing through also a hole in the seam in the back...Great I have a whole in my butt! And today same deal elastic and 3 holes. I am thinking that I need to make trip to the Wally world!
I am thinking that the state of my undies could be a sign of the priority list I have set up. I did not want to buy new undies in this size. However I am deserving to serve my God and my family in NEW undies no matter the size. And when they are too Small I WILL go get new smaller ones... I deserve them also!!!!
Here is to new undies and new priorities!!!!
Monday, November 1, 2010
No Regrets November
My daughter Liz's school has this thing called "no shave November" where the kids do not shave all of November. Girls their legs and boys their face. It is funny.
So I adapted to be No Regrets November. I was going to start an exercise/ better eating program on October, however, time and life got away from me. NOT this month! If I don't get a handle on this weight I run the risk of weight related diseases. I do not want to add to the health issues that are "plaguing" our family at this time!
I also will happily help my family with a new plan for MIL. She had another horrible weekend with SIL... SIL in tears and MIL saying "I will NEVER go back to that woman's house". MIL did not know who SIL was. :( I guess MIL will be going to an Assisted Living place, cause, she CAN NOT stay here full time. I will NOT regret putting my foot down! When the arrangements were made SIL and US said that if ANYONE could not take it anymore we would have to make other arrangements...No one thought it would be MIL!
So I adapted to be No Regrets November. I was going to start an exercise/ better eating program on October, however, time and life got away from me. NOT this month! If I don't get a handle on this weight I run the risk of weight related diseases. I do not want to add to the health issues that are "plaguing" our family at this time!
I also will happily help my family with a new plan for MIL. She had another horrible weekend with SIL... SIL in tears and MIL saying "I will NEVER go back to that woman's house". MIL did not know who SIL was. :( I guess MIL will be going to an Assisted Living place, cause, she CAN NOT stay here full time. I will NOT regret putting my foot down! When the arrangements were made SIL and US said that if ANYONE could not take it anymore we would have to make other arrangements...No one thought it would be MIL!
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